another session of luahan hati..

i thought LOVE wuz always a wonderful feeling..
throughout the journey..
there will only be smiles of joy and happiness..
thought the sky will be much clearer..
thought each problems will be much easier to handle..
thought i will be the happiest person alive juz by loving him..

but..
i never thought it will be full of obstacles..
never thought that my life will be filled with tears and not smiles of joy..
never thought loving someone can be this hard..
never thought waiting for the one u love..loves u back will be so damn hurting..

seeing him wth someone else tore me apart..
thinking bout how much happier he will be wth that girl makes me cry..
glad and happy...for him..
as he have someone that will love him..cherish him..makes the smile on his face never fade away..
but at the same time..
my heart's been torn all apart...
the girl he love wuz not me..
im juz a substitute...
but still..
even the attention..the care he gave juz last for a week..
im happy..
coz i got the chance to love him..n the chance to see him every single day..

whomever win his heart..
i wish best of luck..
n all the love in the world for both of u..
i'll be happy when he's happy...
even i can only love him from a distance..
its enuf..as loving him cam make me much happier..
even he's not with me..
even im not his girl..
n even im not his love...