wahhh!!! sgt la buhsan cuti sem kali ni..dh r wit mara pon xdpt nk di jolikan...adesss...xpe2...nnt aku ade rezki lebih...aku sopping puas2....hihihi...
hurm,ari tu,all of sudden seseorg call aku..aku ngaku aku ade jgk rindukan die..terubat gak la rindu kn...but tah la...rse agk laen perbualan itu..but malas maw pk...
BUHSANNN!!!!!
p/s: miss him..miss my stupid-so-called-best buddie so much!!
i just need a definite answer..i just wanna know whether you need me.. what am i to you.. that's all... after i get the answer- no matter positive or negative the answer is,i'll let evrything go..including you.. i wanna move on with my life..without any regrets..without any unanswered questions in my head..and heart... why is it so difficult for you to understand? i just need a simple answer.. am i just a 'one-nite-stand' for you..or what we had gone through is 'real'? stop treating me like im someone special or important to coz it will hurt me more than you ever know..and it will make me even harder to let you go.. i know you you are not mine..and i never asked you to be mine..even deep inside my heart, i do dreamed that you wud be mine... but i know..im not the one...its ok with me.. just i need the answers to all my questions.. but all that you'd give is..silents... nothing at all... if there is no more feelings towards me..why dont you just say it to my face? anyway..its ok..i consider that you silents is a sign of rejection and your answer is all negative... wish you all the best dear...
even this had happened..foolish of me that i still cant hate you..but instead,i like you more..and more..and more...
ini yang aku rasa terhadap dia..sangat indah mempunyai perasaan itu.. tapi itu dulu... hurm..tah la..selama ni buta rupanya aku ni...baru sekarang nak sedar tempat aku yang sebenarnya...kebenaran itu sangat menyakitkan...!!!
im in the middle of my 5th semester final exams...and the things that i should be worried bout is suppose to be my studies..my cgpa's etc... but dunno why..how..when..all of sudden my mind slipped from what i was supposed to concentrate on...
somehow...im missing him more..and more...each and every day..
i like u.. no matter how much i've tried not to like you.. evnthough i've tried to erase the feelin.. i just cant.. to the point where im juz frustrated..
disebabkan terlalu excited dgn trip ni..aku x tto erk sbb asek berborak je dgn aina..(penat siot..)so perjalanan bermula seawal 530 pg..kelam kabut gak la we all berdua..nk msok kan cert lam frame,cermin frame lak pecah..adoiyai..nseb bek mama aina dh potong2 fruit puding yg aina wat mlm b4 tu..if x lagi laaa kelam kabut..
so dipagi yg indah itu, we all berdue gerak ke umh akim...otw ke umah akim tu, we all dh plan nk bg akim nye molot tertutup sepanjang jalan sbb nnt die riuh sgt bout the way aina drive..(wakakaka..bnyk jgk evil plans yg terkua di minda..but lastly xsmpai ati lak nk wat..) nseb bek die xbising sgt pg tuh..if x dh lama kne dok lam boot..wakakak..
afta tu, we all g amek deepa n mmber die lak kt hostel..PV6..then meredah jam di setapak and jalan pahang..pastu kne berdepan lak dgn pakcik gile n van yg cam siot..afta that baru laaaaaaaaaaa sampai di kolej..dh ramai lak tu..bus pon dah sampai..ape lagi,naek cop tmpat laaa...port we all-aku,liza,aina,akim,phil n suria bersama geng slimbum sume kt blakang skali...
dlm bus sgt2 la buhsan nk mmpos ye..but dh lpas tol ane tah, we all jd sgt sewel..melalak2 smbil meraba2 (plg trok liza la..wakakka..kne raba dgn aku n aina..) n diana lak sgt rajin menocang rambut gadis2 comel seperti kami..huhuhu..thnx ANA!!!
then lam 10am lebih smpai la kami di Teluk Kemang...bagai org yg sgt la jakun, kami pon menjerit2 cam owg xpnh tgk pantai...(tpu je..hihi)...ltak je brg2 sume, ape lagi..amik gambor laaaaaa and tros g salin bju..n tro trjun laut..huhuhu..sian kt AK n mujib..n da geng sbb they all kne sediakan makanan sume..(we all dah cabot larik dolu...wakakaka..)..
sgt2 seronok main ayor laut yg agk xbpe bersih..(and yg plg bgs nye aku xpkai sunblock..mmg hebat la kan kulit aku skunk nih...) then aina and ana ajk pi nek banana boat lak..aku ape lg,pucuk dicita ulam mendatang..poie jee...!!!
aku nih agk fobia ngan ayor..so agk lawak gak bile we all dijatuhkan kt tmpat dalam...dh r aina n ana hempap aku..huhu..sgt best..nnt r kowg,lg skali kite pegi aku hempap kowg lak...
sedang we all dok bermesra bermandi manda..mahluk2 yg di pantai sebok mem'bbq' kan aym n sausage...tukang masak we all sume di import dari nepal...ABDUL KHALIQ & ISKANDAR...wuawuawua....i akim lak xmaw mandi..kunun nye xmaw golap...adesss...sgt feminin okeh..wakakaka...sama la dgn AK tuh...
then we all mkn2...n tolong AK wat sand castle utk tanam hadiah miss...(but ade hamba allah tu kate sand castle tu di wat utk someone..tah la...hihi..gossipz je kje...)
dowg kate miss terharu2 sgt2 dgn adiah we all tu..but owie r miss, frame tu pcah lak..adess..(penat aku and aina cat frame..)
over all..even ade jugak event2 yg menyakitkan hati n sgt2 la annoyed di sana..but we all ttp enjoy..hihihi...yg agk xbesh nye lg aku kne sunburn yg amat la trok..tu la, mak aku kate mandi xhengat fmly..hihihi...
my previous post is all about my probs..~family..friends..and my so-called-best buddies..
i was the one that shud be blame..sbb cpt sgt melatah dgn cakap2 org di luar...
cpt sgt nek hantu..adesss~this is my weakness guys..sowi 4 those yg aku dh sakiti...
but thnks to allah swt..alhamdulillah..masalah2 yg dtg beransur pergi...
aku sgt2 bersyukur dikurniakan sahabat2 spt mereka ini...sbb mereka la sumber kekuatan aku dikala aku lemah..rapuh...
mereka yg menghulurkan bantuan pada aku...
mereka la kesayangan aku...
family..dan teman2 aku...love them all...
ade bnyk g pic teman2 yg xsempat diletak..u know who u r to me guys..thnx 4 all da support...bantuan..mcm2 lg..allah swt je mmpu bls segale budi kowg...
im totaly pissed off now..they said they were my best friends...but in the end, im juz a piece of shit to them.. depan aku pijak semut xmati but kt belakang..macam2 dowg cakap..if rasa xsuke,cakap..asal berani berbunyi kat blakang??
ye..aku xde duit, aku org susah..but itu xbg hak pd korg untuk judge aku..ape aku wat dgn duit aku sume, perlu ke aku gtaw sume org??? masalah2 fmly aku...sal jantan ke..perlu ke ko kecoh kt org len??aku percayakan ko..aku cite masalah2 aku..but ko canang satu dunie ape masalah???
today..i lost a friend..a best friend of mine..not that he's dead or what..but i lost him as a friend..as a special friend... love him more than anyone can tell..but i av to let him go..finally...
masalah keluarga mungkin dapat diselesaikan..mujur ada teman2 sengal yg sanggup membantu aku..syukur alhamdulillah...aku tak tahu bagaimana untuk membalas segala budi dan jasa mereka pada aku sekeluarga...hanya allah yg tahu apa yg aku rasa waktu ini...
Bisik ku pada bulan kembalikan teman ku..kekasihku..syurgaku.. tanpa dia malam menemani aku sepi memeluk ku... Bulan jangan biar siang biar alam ini kelam biar ia sepi seperti ku...
ini la apa yg aku rasa sekarang..saat aku memerlukan teman,saat aku memerlukan sokongan..saat semangatku semakin pudar..saat airmata gugur..saat aku jatuh..saat aku sepi..saat aku sendiri... hilang sudah teman yang dulu ada disisi...hilang teman yang biasa ada waktu aku gembira.. mujur ada tiga empat orang teman...yang sanggup menemani dan mendengar tiap rintihan hati.. tapi hati masih terkilan..insan2 yang aku harapkan untuk menemaniku disaat2 ini..tidak seorang pon datang..
seseorang yang pernah aku sayang selalu cakap, dugaan itu rahmat dari tuhan..tuhan beri dugaan pada hamba yang dia sayang, untuk uji tahap keimanan dan ketabahan hamba dia..
sesetengah orang yang mengenali aku akan berkata bahawa aku seorang yang tabah, kuat semangat..kental.. apa yang mereka katakan itu ada benarnya..tapi bukan sepenuhnya..im trying to hold my feelins..im trying to be as strong as i can..aku cuba menahan airmata dari gugur...aku cuba menahan sebak dada, hiba..aku cuba kaburkan pandangan mata mereka dengan senyuman di bibir..lagak aku yang periang, dengan hilai tawa.. aku lakukan semua itu untuk elakkan dari merisaukan mereka yang sayangkan aku...aku cuba pendam, keep everything to myself..
beratnya kaki melangkah.. beratnya bahu aku memikul... tapi aku harus terus tabah kan? walau ribut yang melanda,itu semua dugaan kan?
tapi kali ini, hati aku sangat rapuh, semangat tak sekuat dulu.. kepercayaan pada diri aku sendiri juga makin hilang.. aku tak tahu sama ada aku mampu..untuk keluarkan insan2 tersayang dari masalah ni..
aku hulurkan seribu kemaafan pada mereka..kerana aku masih tidak mampu melunaskan tanggungjawab aku sebagai anak yang solehah..sebagai kakak.. birthday mama lagi bpe hari je..dah la hadiah xmampu bagi, sekadar ucapan je..patutnya aku dah boleh meringankan beban mama abah..but ni tak,lansong tak boleh diharap!!
patutnya mama abah dah boleh rehat..anak2 yang patut sara mereka..dah la mama abah dah wat macam2 untuk pastikan anak2 dia sihat, sekolah..cukup makan pakai...but anak2?? seorang pon xmampu nk bantu... dah macam2 yang mama abah wat, korbankan untuk anak2..but anak2, ade nk korban kan ape2??? mama abah boleh berlapar untuk anak2..but anak2 sggup ke berlapar utk mama abah?? mama abah sanggup wat apa saja, tebalkan muka pinjam sana sini untuk anak2..but anak2 sanggup ke wat cmtu?? mama abah masih boleh tersenyum, melayan kerenah anak2 yang menyakitkan hati..dibebani masalah2..tak pernah mengungkit..tapi anak2???
airmata masih xberhenti..apa yang boleh aku lakukan???
hye..i'd just finished watchin the muvie..'he's just not that into you'..its a great chick-lit muvie...it have comedy and also romance..a story bout womens out there that always misinterprets guy's action, words, body language etc..its normal i think for us to have those feelin/ the way of thinking..we juz cud not help it from feeling that way..huhu..yup, mybe its not a very appropriate way..but some of us are realy acting that way, give attention to even the smallest details/info etc..
Life is full of lots of up and downs, And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground, And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down, It's so hard to know the way you feel inside, When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide, But you might feel better if you let me walk with you by your side,
And when you need a shoulder to cry on, When you need a friend to rely on, When the whole world is gone, You won't be alone, cause I'll be there, I'll be your shoulder to cry on, I'll be there, I'll be a friend to rely on, When the whole world is gone, you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.
All of the times when everything is wrong And you're feeling like There's no use going on You can't give it up I hope you work it out and carry on Side by side, With you till the end I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand no matter what is said or done our love will always continue on
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on everyone needs a friend to rely on When the whole world is gone you won't be alone cause I'll be there I'll be your shoulder to cry on I'll be there I'll be the one you rely on when the whole world's gone you won't be alone cause I'll be there
its true..everyone needs someone to be their companion through all the bad's and good's in life..that goes the same with me too..but dunno whether i'll find that someone or not..but what the heck?!! i av my beloved diva la familia..sengal crew..teman crazieness and teman gedikness...even without a guy, i still can live a gud life ahead..i doesnt necessary that the guy that i love MUST be my special boyfriend or hubby aite..i can love him as my friend..as long as he's beside me and never leaves me behind...i'll be the shoulder for him to cry on (even he never cry..hihi)..i'll always try to be the friend that he can rely on...as long as i can put a smile on his face..i'll be everything he needs..or wants me to be..sound silly aite..huhuh...furthermore...its damn weird la for best friend to be lovers..im afraid that i'll lose a friend if the love doesnt worked out...adoi..!! *sigh...
as we all know, mother's day is in may..and as i know, mama's bday is on 11 may..adesss, poket sgt kering berhabuk nih..what shud i dooo???what shud i give to her???
ive just got the chance to meet up wth my class mate back in SMKbbs..i realy missed them so damn bad..n thnk god i manage to see them again~even not all of them, espeacialy the gurls.. they all sgt caring..~faiz,epul,adi,che din,din otam dll...sume sgt baik dgn aku...they all bwk aku g jenjalan..makan2..mcm2 laa...so sgt best bile dpt kwn2 lama aku.. but tah la..dunno what went wrong..one of my friends asked me to b his gf..i dunno what to say..damn speechless... its not that im tooo "memilih"..but aku xmaw merisikokan persahabatan ni...adess...n im happy being single mingle like i am now..im living a fuss-free life~tpuu je..ade gak probs bt xde probs yg tmpu pd lelaki kn...hurm...
