another lonely nite of mine
dunno why lately im having too much free time till im bloggin every day..(some of my blogs havent been posted yet..hihi..)
this is the only thing that can hear all i want to say..what's in my head..my heart..what im feeling..
it wont judge me like some people did..
im weak..yes indeed..im just another normal human being..
im easily to fall in and out of love..
i tend to get too 'mesra' with u..i admit it...
i tend to show u how much i love u..always..
i used and always tell myself that ur not worth it...
i always try to make myself realize that ur not the one for me...
i always try to realize that u dont belong to me..
im trying my very best to accept the fact that im only a 'platonic girlfriend' of urs..
im trying to accept the fact that u only need me when ur lonely..
when im gone, u wont n never realize it...
im not a robot..i av feelings too,just like u...
im not a toy that can be played around with...im a girl who owns a very fragile heart...
im not a motel...where u can come and go anytime u want..
im just like a puzzle that have been torn all apart...
i know i've been saying bout 'no more sad love story post'..
i know i have been promising myself and all my friends that i wont think bout u anymore..
that i wont shed a tears for u anymore..
that i wont be missing u anymore...
i wont be thinking bout u anymore...
i wanna erase whatever we had..
i wanna let it all go away..
but its really hard..to let go the feeling that have been kept..and developed for years...
its really hard to admit that u dont love me the way i love you..
its damn hard difficult to admit that im just a toy for you..
and its killing me inside, every second of my life to admit that im still in love with u..no matter how u treat me, how sad u made me..how much did u hurt me...how u ignore me..how u didn't appreciate me..when u take me for granted..how much its suffocating me just to smile in front of u, to make u happy even though im cryin deep inside my heart???
i dont want to rely on guys..
i belong to me..to myself..remember??
i can live my life for my family..for my friends..
i wont live my life for u anymore...
im gonna try my best...this is my promise to myself..
no matter how hard its gonna be..no matter how crazie i will be..no matter how much i cry..
im gonna try to let it all go away from my life..
i wanna live a new life...
plz..let me do it on my own way..
Why I English
1 month ago
10 comments:
da feeling of being in love is so intense dat it feels like it will last forever."we" cant believe dat the "other person" doesnt feel da same way. "we" cant believe dat dis sacred relationship has been betrayed. "u" may have been sure dat "u" were in da same wavelength n dat "u" understood each other. da feelings of betrayal n hurt may take many years to heal. there is no manis without pahit..
yup..that's 110% true..
many girls obsess about how to be the perfect gf. da truth is most guys are happy enough just to have a gf.for guys,taking care of a girl is a challenging job. mayb "he" not ready yet...
im not tryin 2 b the 'so-called-perfect-gf' what so ever..its not that "he's" not ready.."he" already fall for 3 diff girls@da same time..and foolish of me to fall for him too..
u made the chain, so how suppose u to break it.. every first step influence next step... dont think randomly, try to be a machine sometimes.. or abuse exp from previous life huh? adam and eve embrace together by G-D. so, y suppose he get "3" ? G-D just sent "1" for adam to feel his emptiness... uh, sori 4 my awful word... btw, keep moving, u hv great friend there( refer to all pic in da blog)
its ok..words wont harm me anymore..exp from what eva i encountered in life made me realize that love from the opposite gender is not the only thing that complete the life of humanity..as long as i get loved by everyone that i love~family and friends~it will b more than enuf..
as for that guy, my doa r always wth him..i wish he gets all the happiness he deserve..
btw, yup, i do av great peepz around me..so its better for me to start care and appreciate them for loving me,aite?
yup!!! huhuhuu... i'm sure dat my word can be ur guideline.. niway, great friend can be ur great enemy sometimes.. :D
huhuhu..yup..av to be carefull of the "back-stabbers" aite?
thnx anyway 4 ur reminder...
i just 1 u know that, please dont try to found out who am i.. i here bcoz i should be here, i do wat i got to do here~.... thank 4 appreciate my word Ms.Pahit Manis... :D
hurm..its a shame then..i wuz juz about to ask u.."who r u/ do i know u?"..hihi...its ok..thnx neway 4 spending ur time reading my blog..
Post a Comment