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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

so-called-team mates

dunno where shud i start..
the story start with..the seven of us formed a group,for the past 5 semester,we're always in the same group..in every group work,some of us might do extra work while others might be contributing a small effort for assignments and projects/ presentations.
frankly speaking, each and everyone had been complaining bout each others. and some of us never confront the rest of the team mates n tell them bout how he/she felt being in our group; whether he's/ she's been doing all the work, no one have the courtesy to help..the rest of the group are like sleeping partners etc..
new semester begins, and one of the team mates wanna have a new group and asked us to do the same. so the seven of us manage to break into three separate groups, wishing that each one of us will get a better team.
by the time of their presentation, just bfore they end up their presentation..one of them talked about 'how it feels being in a group, being the leader of the group, and the only one that do all the work while the rest never contributes anything'
thanked god i wuz soooo damn tak larat (coz of my demam semua..)if tak..i will say

'cut the crap!! its bullshit..!! dunt tell me that none of us had helped you b4..that we're only relying on u..juz u..say it once again, and tell everyone whether i never helped u b4..???'

ya..i may not be the world's greates group mates, but atleast i tried my best to help my own group. but i guessed people dun see it..whatever la labu..asal ko bahagia suda..

p/s: hopefully u wont treat me the way u've been treating me laa..im not ur GF or ur scandal taw..dun treat me like im sum kind of ur '1-nite-stand'.or sumone that u can turn to whenever ur alone, av probs wth ur GFs...im not dummy..not trash taw..im human with feelings..treat me elok2 and do respect me.

demam..!!

got a fever + flu + migrain + pms =sangat tak larat..!!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

The Beauty In Ugly

she's so big hearted,
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
its a pretty person's world
but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own
if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand
well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
well you are fresh, you're face is fabulous
don't forget you're one of a kind
when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind
well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ugly
well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart and oh
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
see the beauty in a ugly

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Mood swing..!!

Lepas satu, satu masalah datang.Tak baik mengeluh, semua nih ujian Tuhan kan? Jauh dalam hati, nak sangat berhenti, dan ambil masa untuk diri sendiri, dari terlalu berusaha untuk memuaskan hati orang lain, menjaga hati orang lain sedangkan hati sendiri tak pernah orang lain amik tahu. Susah senang, sakit atau sihat, suka duka, kadang-kadang tak ada seorang pun yang mahu bertanya. Kenapa perlu jadi terlalu baik dan sebaliknya? Kenapa perlu dipuaskan hati mereka? Kenapa perlu buat semua kerja untuk mereka? Kenapa perlu mengiyakan tiap hujah,tuduhan,arahan mereka? Kenapa perlu tunduk menyembah bumi pada seseorang yang lansung tak menghargai kita?Kenapa perlu merayu agar disayangi, dikasihi? Kenapa perlu meminta untuk difahami, dihormati?


Wednesday, July 15, 2009

stress


i didnt sleep well for the past few days...there was tons of work to be done..and currently i still have 3 assignments to be completed and have to be submitted by tomorrow...i havent study OB yet, and tomorrow there will be a quiz..!!!
demm..!!! i skip my meals...i'd worked passed my bed time..sleep for an hour or two...i keep on vomitting...and now, the best part...i get my migraine and gastric at the same time..!!!
there's still many works to do, and i cant even sit properly..wish this pain will go away..!!

Monday, July 13, 2009

wish that i wont be alone...


Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

entah

tak tahu masuk nih, dah bape kali aku gitau pada diri aku yang aku masih tak mampu berbuat ape2 untuk merubah keadaan..berat nye beban...berat nye tanggungjawab yang aku kene pikul..bukan maksud aku situasi ini menyusahkan aku..cuma aku rasa amat berat untuk aku pikul di waktu begini...
tak tahu pada siapa boleh aku luahkan apa yang terbuku dalam hati..tak semua memahami ape yang aku hadapi...mungkin pada zahirnya, tiap seorang dari mereka mencuba untuk memahami..tapi dalam hati, hanya tuhan yang mampu mengerti...
bukan niat aku untuk menagih simpati...cuma aku ingin mencari seseorang yang mampu aku kongsi perasaan aku ketika ini..
jujur aku katakan, aku tidak sekuat yang disangka...aku juga insan lemah, amat lemah...aku cuba menjadi sekuat yang mungkin pada zahirnya, supaya orang disekeliling aku juga kuat dan tabah, tak risaukan aku...
tapi airmata aku nih tak faham keadaan aku yang masih ingin terus melakonkan watak seorang gadis yang tabah...terlalu cepat aku mengalah dengan airmata aku...
lagi aku senyum, makin deras airmata yang mengalir...dugaan hebat dari DIA masih belum sempurna, masih belum tamat..
makin lama, makin aku sedar..tiada seorang pon dalam dunia yang mampu memahami aku,mengerti apa yang bermain dalam hati dan akal fikiran aku...melainkan DIA yang satu dan airmata aku...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

STRESS + SAKET OTAK= JIWE KACAU




final exam lg beberapa minggu je lagi...adoi, assignment lak makin bertimbun...Organizational Behavior...Business Law...Islamic Studies..Entrepreneurship Studies...wuuauaaa!!!!!
sangat2 stress out okeh!!!!!!!! atoiyai....dh la dgn family matters yg xberkurang...so-called-friend yg wat hal..love life yg tunggang langgang...my PMS lagik!!!! demm..btul2 uji kesabaran btul...!!!


Saturday, July 11, 2009

ratu hati...



Jangan dititiskan airmata mu
tak usah keliru
tiada menentu
ada sinar diwajah mu
ada syurga di hujung jari mu
damai sungguh hati
kau penawar di kala sunyi
ratu hati...ibu...
hentikan renungan jauh..sayu
hilang tanpamu
bukan kau tak tahu
ibu..mummy..mama..umi..
hingga akhir nanti
pintaku jangan kau sedih
usah gusar lagi
kasih mu abadi
utuh di dalam hati
doaku jangan kau pergi dulu
tempat ku menyerah kasih
wahai ibu...

Friday, July 10, 2009

too good to be true 2

kes ari tu masih tak selesai..xtaw sape btul and sape salah..

but just before keluar cerite bout die flirt with my friend, die mula bincang bout kahwin..bout future, us..together...

and now, makin hari, makin die bersemangat becerita bout our plans- marriage and ada family sendiri...and he proposed me..

hurm..buntu..

Monday, July 6, 2009

silly thoughts...and stupid feelings

I'll be waiting for you..
even if it takes too long..
because i dont want to cry..
this tears of pain no more...

you'll let me know..
if this love is just a lie..
but even if it so..
you're the one i'll always love..

take a look at me..
like a starlight in the sky..
can you be the one that's in my heart?

Sunday, July 5, 2009

too good to be true

have you guys ever been in a situation where it makes u feel that whatever happend were sooooo good to be true??

ive been in this situation for the past 2 weeks..and its really beyond my expectations...never thought that this kind of thing would happen to me...

i thought my BF and my BFF are close as friends..but it seems like it was more than friends...(hanya allah yg tahu kebenaran nye...)

she told me that my bf in love with her..flirting with her..ask her out coz im not in KL..etc...

he told me that he was just asking about her new life..wants to meet up but im not in KL so av to wait till i get back to KL..he never av any special feelings towards her etc...

dunno whom i shud believe...im the one that got hurt really bad..

to both of u..i dunno what ele shud i do..it may sound really silly...damn stupid..but i still love him..and i still like her as my lil sis...

but i keep on thinking, what are the reasons that made u guys hurt me this way?? have i've done anything wrong to u??

another hearbreak moments..dunno when will i find someone that will truly love me...b